KaDeWo - The Joy Advocate

Every morning I awake, with her on my mind. Occasionally she has just visited my dreams, Other nights I am searching for her presence in them. I miss her dearly. Summer nights spent together Secrets shared at her table Love given when I was not worthy of receiving it. I know that I have not imagined…her. A few days ago I attempted to call with good news, then paused only to be reminded… Now that she is absent I miss her deeply. Our souls are intertwined… her voice still rings in my ears. The softness of skin, the curve of her hips mixed with her heavy hands and precious feet will never be erased from memory. Yet, Her laughter I cannot recall. At times I burst into tears thinking of the love I am missing, from her. Memories are not enough to shed my pain. I long for her, Wanting her here to hold one another again. I shall never forget the way she looked at me when she learned I accomplished a feat she most desired. No one has ever looked at me that way! She was the center of my world lo

The night I turned “flirty 30”, I dreamt in color for the first time. I remember this so vividly, be c ause up until then I had only saw black, grey and white in all my dreams. Before this unexpected surprise, I didn’t even know it was possible to dream in color; my family and friends don’t talk about dreams regularly. I love dreams and have spent a lot of time reading interpretations. Dreams about rushing water usually a direct link to the dreamer feeling out of control in a relationship or a blazing fire can signify anger or the rebirth of something significant in the dreamer’s life. Many moons ago, I read that the average person has 100 dreams a night and is lucky enough to recall one or two when the wake up. And when remembered, the focus is on what occurred and sometimes what we felt — emotionally and physically — and not the colors seen or sounds heard. As a child, my dad and I discussed the toilet dream…You know the one where you think you’ve made it to the bathroom and relieve